Moments of Weirdness

What's the meaning of weird

Depending on how you perceive the word

There could be thousands of explanation

To give the meaning of weird

Me too, got my own definition of weird

But it's not the meaning that confuses me

But the situation

The moments of weirdness

They happened at a certain times

And of course I knew when it comes

It's like gallons of water flowing rapidly

Into a tank, already full of water

You know sooner or later the water will blow up the tank

These weird moments of mine

Are truly weird, odd and rather peculiar

I don't mind handling them alone

But it's because I can't which made them weird

But again, how weird is weird

Maybe it's weird for me, and for her

But not to millions other

They may have different definitions of it as well

As for me, the moments were, are and will always be weird

The Ninth Month

Ramadhan

The month intended, preserved

Only for the 'umat' of Prophet Muhammad saw

Ramadhan

The fasting month

Where we are taught how to control our desire & lust

Ramadhan

A testing month

For those whose faith is firm and unshakeable

Ramadhan

The time of reward

Where every good deed is doubled

Ramadhan

Which has in it a special night

Where one night of 'amal, is worth a thousand nights

Ramadhan

Truly a special month

As it was the month of Al-Qur'an

Ramadhan

I wish they know how special you are

As they seem to ignore everything you had to offer

Ramadhan

I pray to God immensely

To give me the opportunity to meet you again

Whoop! Whoop! Whoop!

Whoop! Whoop! Whoop!

So swift it flies

So fast it’s no match for the eyes

Whoop! Whoop! Whoop!

Accordingly it flowed

Due to instructions not being followed

Whoop! Whoop! Whoop!

The ego is breach

The intention is none other than to teach

Whoop! Whoop! Whoop!

The homework is not a torture

Believe me, it’s for your future

The New World

Shocked by the people I was

When I first step my feet on it

Seriously nervous I was

Never had I thought the time has come

Excited I still am

As this is what I’ve been looking to

And still sad I am

Not to have my friends alongside me this time

It is nothing but the truth

When they say the real world is different

Adding to the spectacular

I would add it is totally different

What a tough job it is

To be doing the noblest job on earth

But me myself in all honesty

Is nowhere near the stage of noble

Perhaps it is good as a start

So that I could learn something from it

But above all else

I’m happy to be among them

Who is called a TEACHER

That Much I Love You

I love you dearie,

I want to make you happy...

I love you so much,

I need to make you happy,

For me to be happy...

I love you that much...

Love is indeed the greatest think in the world,

It makes me says things like that,

When I miss you...

What I Want You to Know

It’s weird when I heard they said

You’re not the most beautiful girl

Coz last time I looked at the night sky

The moon wasn’t there, it was you whom I saw...

Everyday I cracked my head

Just to find another way of saying I love you

I wanted to say it to you thousands time

Without you getting used and bored to it...

Just so you know, I’m actually a man

It’s important for you to know that

As some boys think they need to love thousands of women

But a man knows how to love a woman, in thousands different ways...

But please don’t think my love has lessen

When you don’t get those sweet words from me

Coz if I were to tell you the truth

There’s actually no word that I can said

As perfectly as you deserved...

But above all else I just wanted to say

I love you so much and thank you for loving me...

Answers for Questions

Even in the most limited time

I would find a way to say it

Coz if I don’t say it

How else can I let you know?

That you’re the brightest star in my night

And why else would I do that

If it isn’t because of my love for you

And what else should I do

When you’re so far beyond my reach here

While I got a lot of love to offer

What I Think Today

Today,I think to myself,

Never will this heart sways,

Yes,I said to myself,

I won't let you go away.

Today,I think to myself,

How much you mean to me,

And I said to myself,

It's true that I always wanted you with me.

Today, I think to myself,

How much time I left just watching you,

So I said to myself,

Now I wont let a second pass without loving you...

-Inspired by the song What a Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong-

An Enchantment for You

A magician you are,

You take out the rage with just your voice.

A magician you are,

You make me smile just with your words.

A magician you are,

You push away the cloud to show me the sun.

A magician you are,

Your whisper like a rhyme to me heart.

A magician you are,

And a magician you will always be,

Keeping my heart employed even when we’re far apart.

How

How can you tell the sun not to shine when clouds exist,

How can you tell the rainbow not to glow when rain disappear,

How can you tell me not to fall in love when you exist,

How can you tell me not to miss you when this heart is for you whenever, where ever, forever...

How She Make Me Feel

How Weak I am

What am I doing here,
When she is waving the red flag.
What am I doing here,
When the war trumpet break through the air.
What am I doing here,
When she takes out her sword.
What am I doing here,
When she dodges behind her shield.
What else can I do here,
Except praying for the best to her...

Rindu Sang Lelaki

Panas terik mentari suluh,
Aku palingkan wajah tatap padamu,
Sendu sayu angin berlagu,
Aku hela nafas namamu,
Gugur lerai air hujan,
Hati lunyai direjam kasih,
Seluas langit tinggi terbentang,
Selama zaman aku merindu.

Andai malam kau katakan gelap,
Maka mimpi aku gelita.
Andai hujan kau sifatkan suram,
Maka anganku ini habis kelam.
Jika esok sebutmu menarik,
Tirai esokku telah habis carik.
Andai diam kau sangka malu,
Aku sebenarnya dilapah rindu...

The End is Coming

The end is coming

The journey is ending

What seems to be
A very long journey
Is now showing it real self

I feel like in a tunnel
There’re so many at first
Then I chose one to go through
Not knowing what could be inside
While in there
Countless things happened

At times, I feel lost
And it feels like never-ending
Then little by little
The light begins to draw in closer
Feel happy at first
But surprisingly, the joy comes
With tears parading in my eyes

The journey finally shows it real-self
Every meeting and memory is precious
Because in the end I have to move on
Because in the end
We have to go our own way

The end is coming
The journey is ending
From a distance
I can now see the tunnel’s end
The journey has come to an end

Bla...Bla...Bla...

Bla...bla...bla...

They come again

Touching a stone

Then hopping to another

Bla...bla...bla...

I wonder about them

Neither they attract

Nor were they a threat

But I kept looking

And listening obediently

Bla...bla...bla...

They're still coming

Hopping here and there

Finding a place to stop

The Circus, The Clown & The Audience

Dismantled

Is the word for it

Watch carefully

Observe what is around you

Then you'll know

What is being dismantled

Corrupted

None better than that

To describe those up front

Coming out with policies

None profitable, less beneficial

All are corrupted

Dream

What else can we do

Being here far below

In the deepest mud

Blinded by empty promises

Continue to hope and dream

The Imperfect Bus

There I was

On the road

Waiting for the bus

Rode the wrong one before

Now watching for the right one

There she comes

Not in perfect condition

But I stopped her nonetheless

I looked at her

But she stares at me confused

I asked where she is heading to

She’s heading the same point as me

I wanted to go up

But she stopped me

Halfway on the stairs

Helplessly I stopped

She wants to make sure

Telling me to wait first

As she too, before

Took the wrong passenger

Well, here I am

Still watching over her

She stares endlessly

Towards the road

Wondering what, I wonder?

I know my destination

But not her I supposed

I won’t get out anyway

Until she says so

Coz I think it's the right bus

I pray to God

Hopefully she’ll let me in

I don’t want to stop another bus

One is enough for a mistake

I want this imperfect bus

Wondering Endlessly

Wondering endlessly
I wonder about her
I dream being together with her
I think about talking to her
I wonder can I watch that eyes again tomorrow

Wondering endlessly
I wonder about her
About her whom I think I care
Her who has been the one I want to look after
The one I am now watching over

Wondering endlessly
I wonder about her
Does she feels the same
Will she say yes
To a man who she never think
May love her secretly

Wondering endlessly
I wonder about her
Did I say love just now?

That's how confused I was

Couldn't even tell between like and love

Ending this endless wonder
I am not going to step back
This is love
Love which comes
When you never expect it
Wondering endlessly
When will I end this endless wonder...

Words From The Beholder

I'm swayed when she flies in,
On a swirl of wind,
With that first look,
She holds my eyes...

One word from her,
Could make my heart blossom,
Even her lies,
Are so endearing...

How was it that you come to me,
It's hard to believe but how blessed I am,
Like a rare moon you appear,
Slowly, gently, warmly, touching my heart...

A Monologue

I was startled
Not of the beauty
Not of anything I could see

I am amazed
Watching her smile
I feel I can fly

I will always tell d truth
Even it leads to my doom
As long as my love blooms

What if it's only me?
I won't be in dismal
My love is unconditional

Trying hard to remember
When does it all started
But fail to point out clear
As it's not something I can opted

Just Phrases

- When the world knows no boundaries, that's the end of us all

- Through love only you'll see life

Those phrases are not taken from anywhere or anybody...
Originally mine, as far as I concern...
Just thinking and suddenly those phrases popped out...

Praises for Her

Whether or not the moon will show
It is not for me to decide
Adoring the moon
I just can wait down here
Waiting for her to show up...

If I got the power
I'll blow away the clouds
I'll stop them from coming
So there's nothing between me and her
So she can shine upon me
So I can adore her more and more...

Yet, I'm just a guy
Who owns no such power
A guy whose heart is burning
To see the moon
To be with her
In the darkness of night...

Awaiting

An offer was given
Simply just an offer
Of giving,
Not asking anything in return
Of what is offered to be given
Yet the offer was given nonetheless

An answer is needed
Just of yes or no
The offer,
May not be as good
Or perhaps just unacceptable
Still an answer is needed

Patiently waiting
May the offer
Accepted or at least
Responded...
This whole time of waiting
Makes me rotting

God knows
How this heart is trembling
Fearing upon
What I couldn't see
Of all the test
This is the one I might
Cannot take...

This Is NOT Ignorant

Nothing so important matters,
When you're feeling what I feel,
It maybe you or the others,
It's inevitable, can't be avoided,
Nobody can help, even yourself...

You care about nobody,
As if there's no one except you,
In fact, you couldn't care less,
Nothing so important matters,
When you're feeling sleepy...

Under The Same Sky

Can someone tell me,

How many days had passed,
Coz I couldn't tell it anymore...

Everytime I stare at the moon,
I saw her...
Whenever I looked at the stars,
I saw the shape of her...
When I looked into the water,
Nothing but her shadow appeared...
And when I close my eyes,
I feel like she is by my side...

Can anybody tell me,
That she miss me,
As much as I miss her...

A Word

If there's such a word

To tell you  how much I miss you

I would say it every second

In every breath

As you're always there in me

That I never miss to miss you

If there's such a word

To let you know how much you mean to me

I would never stop  saying it

Looking right into those beautiful eyes

I'll whisper it to your ear

You mean a lot more than the world

Though I'm not that much to you

If there exist such a word

To show you how much I love you

I'll never stop thanking God

As I never stop loving you... 

The Contradictory

Is it true
That two is better than one
Coz  I've heard
One is better than none

Isn't it funny to watch
A lost bird who never learned how to fly
But never looked down upon it
Coz it's never too late to learn

The less you know
The better it is for you
Guess it's wrong too
For being ignorant only lead to your doom

Looking at the far side of the river
I saw people waving at me
As if saying to me there's always light
As long as tomorrow shows up

Lurking Into My Life

As early as the rooster

We've awaken

As cheerful as the morning chirps

Our voice have broken the serenity

All day long, never stop running

We're trading - knowledge selling

With a little bit of negotiating

We call it teaching

Crying over the time

When we miss the time of our own

Less spacious, together we move

Shining the darkness filled in the room

But none of us crying over it

Never lament nor cursing their fate

So do me - who caught in this

'Coz it's our desire to teach

The World I Trapped In

They don't affect me

The noise they're making

The atmosphere they're in

I'm just simply unaffected

As I'm in my own thought

Trapped in my world of the past

Wanted to be in there

For as long as I can remember

Longing to feel what I used to

Desperately wanting the love I couldn't reach

It was me 'coz I don't want to blame my dear

Me who started it all

That is why

They don't affect me at all

I wanted to be trapped in my world of the past

Till my last breath, do we apart